Hurt Heart

When your heart hurts, everything hurts.... your mind and body are thrown outta wack and you just wish it would end. I fall hard and fast, can be good but so far has mostly been bad. Recently i met someone that seems great, beautiful...funny, but as usual whatever light, whatever goodness, whatever dream i had has been replaced with hurt...the pain of not being wanted, the realization that no matter what i seem to do i always end up wrong, i remain alone, this time though, someone i love and trust a whole lot has in my mind betrayed me, right or wrong thats how i feel. Things have been said and done and cant be taken back but no one else seems to care but me and im so angry i can barely think about it without getting angrier. Im willing to bet money on the fact that neither of these people will read or even know this is how i feel in the slightest. Whats worse is i dont think they even thought about it at all or even care. I dont want these feelings, the love...the anger...the pain, i want it all to go away, i didnt choose any of these feelings but i have to live with them now, these loud voices inside my head telling me different things, and there is no one to drown out these voices. Ill still care about them both, and i still want them in my life, though right now that isnt a good thing, they are both happy without me which hurts, especially since they both affect my own happiness so much, what am i supposed to do, where do i go, do i try to tell them and risk further injury, or do i just push it down and hope it goes away.....RHJU%^E&YW@%$^*U$N^^EUD^*U^$&B^$N&W^$WRYUNSU^$SN^W&#@!@!@ $*

thats all i have to say about that......